Oh my, oh my.....

time is flying straight on by...
neither did it run away today
just the sun as it played in the field today
setting behind the clouds
hiding from my eyes
but not from my heart

sky light bright up in the clouds
dancing winds blowing as they will
tomorrow rains upon the earth
as nature lives on in never ending life
light is hiding in my eyes
and playing in my hands

it is a thought i had today
wanting more time and sitting still
time flew by so long lost now
and time is coming soon to be
curious i am at the queries i have
what if land was really the sea

time has rested in my mind
laughter in my heart
seeing all the children play
and feeling like i can fly



So...today it was thoughtful and full of words that I cannot make rhyme.
I talked with my mom today. It was a wonderful chat of my past and how I am today.
I think about my children and my life before today...all are great memories that will carry me on to the next thought.
Sounds a little weird doesn't it?
I do get stuck in my head at times. Even if I am in a crowded area I seem to always be thinking and looking for clues as to the next direction to go. There are a lot of things that I still wish to try and some things I have moved past.

I guess all in all I am just being me, past...present...and future unseen.
I love who I am and I try to be the best I can be each day. Sure there are faults that occur but that is how I learn to be better.

A message to my daughter.... learn not to be dependent on WHO likes you or is impressed by what you do or say.
YOU be impressed by who you are and your talents. To share those talents will be the best gift of your self to the world.
Over exaggeration is people pleasing.
I have dealt with, and sometimes STILL deal with, old routines and scripts of co dependency. The world seems to have that as a NEED as far a society goes.
There is wonderful talents in being self expressive and honest opinions.

I like looking through my eyes and heart at the world. It holds great beauty in everything.
I have lots of talents and lots of caring. The greatest gift is being happy with me.

A message to my son....life holds a lot of unexpected events. There are times that the surprises are not what you want to have, but we ALL set up the events in advance by choices we make in actions. Consequences are what comes from every choice we make. The ability to ask for insight and guidance when we are least willing to ask can make hard times a little clearer to be seen through. Family can help if even it is only listening to the frustrations.

Sometimes, my children, I feel like I did not teach you the right things. However, I taught you what I had to teach at the time. I know that your lives are very different than mine, but there are cross over similarities.
Always feel good about asking questions and asking for ideas to expand your own vision of your life.
Family will always be around for you to ask.
Family can help if you just talk and share what is going on.

Sometimes I think I do not do this to my best ability because I am usually 'way busy' and seem to always finding things to do.
I will tell you this though...I KNOW that when I pick up the phone or write a letter or walk up to my friends..that there are amazing pieces of information I can learn...all by talking.

This isn't meant as a lecture at all. It is a time that I felt I could write about things that have been in my mind. There are always times you can say
"Shu' up...my turn talk" just like Jason did at 3.

Love and kisses to all...
Light and laughter is wished even more.