Dreams

Every night there is a different scene in my head.
Sometimes the movement is fast and barely remembered...then there are the ones that are so slow that I am exhausted in the morning.

Lately there have been many dreams of happiness.
Seeing my children as small ones and having them turn around in a blink of and eye to being adults and showing me the newborne babies they each have.
Seeing family that have gone on in their life and seeing them smile.
Seeing my Xanadu playing and waiting for me....she throws a ball at me and does the game "got your bone" growl.
I woke up with a smile after Xanadu played with me last night.

Strange times to become attached to memories.

I have been going to my son's softball games and am having a BLAST at it!
He is awesomely animated during play...and so concentrated when at bat. Just like when he was 8.
I helped my daughter move and have been served a most delicious dinner in her new home. The new place really fits her and Jordan. It is warm, cozy, earthy, and spacious.
My niece is doing well after her adventure and has been visiting me regularly!
The cats are doing well...Marty (my room mate) returned from Burning Man full of insight and calmness.
I miss my other room mates Bob and Sharon.
They are now 'married and own a home' while being stylishly coupled.
My other friends are returning from adventures and some are on the journey of their life.

I seem to be the one that is the center spoke for some reason. Even though I do a lot of travel to different homes....they all tell me of the adventures.
They leave and return.

I want to go somewhere.

Someplace I have never been to before.
(which leaves the world pretty open)

My mind travels...and my heart travels. I just wish I could be moving my body along with it.

I enjoy my new job. I like fixing things and figuring out problems.

I think the biggest thing I like to do is to sing and laugh.
I haven't had the time to fly my kites...or climb much...or ride much...or run much at all!
But I seem to be very busy laughing. That is very good. I am healthy and I am enjoying who has come into my life.
It seems strange at times.

I don't want to date anyone else...I don't want to do my normal running around.
I love to dance...but the laughter I share with Joe has been tremendous.
We don't run out of things to talk about.
One of these days I hope that all I know will meet him.

For now...He is enjoyment., comfort, and extremely patient with me.
Goodness knows he needs it! (if you know me that is ;) ...

I miss having the time to write. I like the exhaustion my mind has.
I do work 2 jobs currently so I haven't been very available.
I am happier than I have been in a LONG time.
The happiest moments are still reserved for my children.
Maybe, one of these days, there will be other Children to have happiness about...but that time is in the future.

I am thankful, and grateful, and well loved by my family and friends.
Even the cats love me at night....purring in my ears and snuggled up close.

Time is good and plentiful.

Kisses and hugs and gentle 'butt pattings' to all.

G'night.


Oh...Deadhead...travel safely and in Light.

Circe