emotional

but probably a bit premature. a compainion i have not.
friends do abound in my life and maybe that is all i am supposed to be. i am a bit tired of this heart dance. i hate the pain and the feeling of failure.

i do love....but it is best to forever stay silent on it.

today i truly hurt mentally, emotionally, and if i don't ride my bike right i will hurt physically.

it is okay
i will get through the day

but distance has won


for my children: do not worry sweet babies. i am fine. just closing doors again.