pissed at delays

well
probation is not easy to deal with on a new job.
nor is having to back out of school because I have to work late right now.

i talked to the school directors. i am delaying the start of my classes until i get past my probation at work. looks like I start classes in April or I can start again in August. I will continue to pay for the course though so it has a built up bank on it.
that means that once I am ready to test I can without waiting to pay off the school :")

i hate... TOTALLY HATE .... having to delay it.
I took my first class last night there... came home and studied until 2 am...then went to work TIRED as hell and not really focusing on my NEW job.
the lesser of two evils is to protect my NEW job and get a little more stable in it. THEN I will start my school again.
i should still be able to graduate at the end of this year though. the directors talked with me and I can 'double up' on day and night courses once i have vacation time added to my employment.
that way i won't have top wait TOO long ;)

maybe Jambalaya won't be so destructive either by then. i hate having him sit in a kennel for 14 hours then have me come home and study and then bed when I can...
not fair to him at all.

actually it was not fair to ME to stress so much on a new job AND classes.

I have a little time to work it out.
who knows? If the job loses its position then unemployment may pay for my career change :)
still having things in process and limbo I guess.
Right now I am REALLY sad and REALLY tired.


I know I HAVE to keep the kjob for now.
I know I WANT to get my license in order.
I know I can be patient for a little while longer and see how it all settles down.
I know it is mandatory that I stay healthy.
I can still read and gather my books in a slower pace and get the good prices. I did not think I needed to pay for NEW books when there are better savings on USED books.

I am sad at the delays....but the job is important at this time.

fudge....