and time to do nothing :)

all roads that lead to good deeds are paved with good intentions.

I know...it is a bit weird sounding but I mean it just like I wrote it.
I had intended on doing these things I wrote about. Instead I enjoyed doing absolutely nothing today.
All day.
Except for when I went and spent time with my daughter. There are a lot of memories to share. Knowledges that I had forgotten about. The comforting touch of Momma helping to ease the hurts. Soothing and making her child laugh.
Inside I am thrilled Amanda. To get to sit and talk to you of how it felt being pregnant with you.
Knowing you share the same exact emotion of questions that every woman has.

Something no male will ever experience. A kinship with complete creativity.

THe moments of laying on the bed and talking with you and laughing with you are most precious. To feel the grandson kicking about and knowing you are uncomfortable but trying to get you to focus on the amazing changes. You have a wonderful sense of closeness with your son. Jordan has this also. The amazing thing is to feel the common bond of mother and child and child. I know I come in and start doing things like busy work right away, but once it is done I can relax and enjoy you. Stroking your tummy and watching it jump. Truly delightful my Elven Child.

The time spent doing absolutely nothing is most precious when it contains shared moments of my memories.
Laughter at positioning and small stretches.

I remember getting to talk to my Momma about a few things. I stayed silent on a lot though. Wish I hadn't. It may have been much easier emotionally if I had. All great moments Amanda. Remember them.

I really needed today.