Let's see....

Realization hits me this morning with an attitude of :
I am doing what is right for ME finally.
I am in the processes of moving out of a home I thought I would love to be in for a long time.
Unfortunately there were circumstances that have made me realize I needed to be on my own and not have roommates. I love being around people. I need mental space and it was becoming invaded by how others thought I needed to behave and deal with my life. These men (my soon to be ex roommates) are not my father. I moved away from home at 18.

Now I am not one for being stubborn or telling people how to live.
I am pissed at this time.

Unfortunately I am dealing with a bunch of anger that is cold and waiting for a reheat in a pot.
I HAVE priorities. I am a mother that has been doing a lot. I have my daughter with a newborn and her dealing with her husband being ill JUST after her C-Section.
I HAVE a move that I cannot complete in someone else's expectation.
I have a full time job PLUS a second job.
My son is in town visiting.
I have my bestest friend that is moving to another country and he is having an attitude about wanting the hell out of this country.
I have my longest time friend dying of cancer right now and I have not even had time to call and talk to him this week.

Marty wants to be in a different space and so do I. I adore him and love him like a brother. I am going to miss him terribly.

I have (and soon will NOT have) another roommate that is rather domineering. He is impatient and I am not into being bullied. Been there. DONE with it. HE is the reason I am moving /and half moved / out!
Marty asked me why I did not tell him that he needed to act differently with me. "help him change". Damn it I am trying to CHANGE ME and do not want to help ANYONE to change anymore.

I gather today that when I go over to the old house to get a few more things out that I will have a confrontation. I am not looking forward to it at all.
I will be able to deal with it though.

So this was MY bitch session.