okay.... so I am a tad bit scared.

School starts...there is so little time for me to do all that I have procrastinated to do.

GAWD I wonder where my head is at sometimes.
I admit..for some reason going to school for ANY reason scares me. It is a belief that I will be shown that I do not know what I am talking about... that I am possibly stupid or uncaring or .... whatever.

Not really sure why I doubt that my skills are "less than" since I have actually done massage for 30 years (give or take a couple of years).

I want and need my license for massage therapy to be in great order. I want out of tech work (computers). I finally decided the direction I wanted to take in massage, too. I want to do medical therapy for cancer patients.

Mostly because of Leslie Bavousett. I am one who loves to know you feel better because I have worked with you/on you for healing.

I KNOW I am good at it too
Now I have to (once again) PROVE it to the rest of the world.
This can really frustrate me at time.
Proving myself over and over again.

I am bitchy today and frustrated and scared. My friend, Robin, will not let me run away either!
LOL
as if my bike cannot take me anywhere.... just watch me ride away!
LOL
all in good fun and trying not to worry.

I don't want to give up on this because it is really FOR ME.
no one else.
I can choose to be who or whatever I want to be...but do I have the tenacity to always
strive to learn it the right way????

I know I have intelligence and a very caring heart. WHY do I not believe in me?

okay... here it goes:

grrrrr

that was my Chihuahua moment in time.