Decisions

Fly...
Making sure that stability is here in my head.
Marty and I were driving along today talking as we tend to do. Out of all of my weird thoughts and actions there has been some really nice clarity of late. I can see my actions and my emotional responses. An "ah!" moment when he was driving this morning.

I don't do well being a hermit and limiting my experiences to only inside. I have so neglected my need for activity that I have choosen some old repeats of a pattern.
I don't like it. I don't normally hide away. I am used to being outside. Doing things adn adventure.
Yes I am going to be 47 this October. It isn't a bad deal with who I am.

I am afriad that I allowed my insecurities take over.
I am living for me.