a new home comming

Never have I lived alone for long.
A total of 6 months (not congruently either) throughout my 47 years.

I put in an application for a home of my own today. Well, and apartment at least.
1st floor apartment so my friends that cannot walk well can come to see it.
I have clients that cannot climb stairs so they will be able to see me also (or I can travel to you still like I always do). 1st floor so that my sisters can come also.

I will not be far from my daughter so I can help out with my grandson, Zephyr. The kids can come over and wash their clothes and visit me when they wish. I am scared, but excited also.
IF everything goes well I will be moving on Jan 13, 2007. I get to pick Jason up from the airport on that day, too!

My grandson is "expected" to arrive on the 15th (but I think he will be a bit earlier than that date ;) so get ready!

I love this house I am in, but the needs of my soul are requiring quiet and peace. There is not that here. The new apartment is in a quiet area. Not too new so it isn't outrageous in costs.
Got a good deal and the move is through UMOVEFREE.COM which I thought was awesome.

I have had lots of messages of late and all are delivered to me in odd ways.

I wanted a place nearer my daughter (like IN the same complex) but they only have 4 apartments with W/D connections. I want my W/D :). It isn't that far from Amanda at all. I can easily go and pick her up when she needs and I will travel to their home to watch Zephyr when needed. That way the baby isn't stressed and the kids don't have to "pack the world" to go see GranMommie (I am going to teach him that this is my name to be called by) and play. It will be different.
I look forward to being able to play with their animals when I want to.

I am excited.

First step of MY life. MINE. I am only responsible for me and no back-ups to depend on. About time.

I had wanted to live downtown and looked at a LOT of places.
I need trees. I need a walking area of green.
I need to be near Amanda and Jordan. The timing on babysitting is going to be such that it will be a trade off with Amanda.

I have been tolda I can paint the walls to my hearts content and when (OR IF) I move out they will give me the free paint to return it to rights.
I will not have a pet for a while. Maybe not at all. I have to learn to take care of me first.

It sometimes does not make sense on how I do things (according to family) but this is a NEED TO DO FOR ME.
ONLY me.

I have been very stressed of late with all that has occured.
I am tired of having to account to others for my actions.
I do not live under my parent's home anymore and do not enjoy being treated as such. I keep hearing old tapes playing in my head. Old reactions and frustrations of not being able to have someone understand where I am trying to get to.

My niece is going to go over my budget with me (she was a banker for a while) and I am enthused by what she has done in her management of funds.

Time to be on my own.