there are distances occuring

and it seems that things have taken a turn for negativity in my interactions with others. I am withdrawing from almost everyone I know at this time. Please be aware it is for MY good to heal.
I have several changes taking effect

Decide if I WILL be able to keep my home where I live.
Marty is moving to Korea and swears he doesn't know who I am anymore. Ask the freaking questions Marty! DO NOT depend on me telling you where I am mentally.

Mark will be very flexible when his mother pases on. He may choose to travel. Seems like that is his desire at this time.

Chandra is independant. I adore my niece and enjoy living with her. I WIll miss her when she chooses to be on her own again.

So here it is folks. Honesty.
No money because of stupid assed decisions.
I had to borrow for my rent. This sucks. I am very capable of living with a very little amount. That may become extremely necessary. My truck is a good amount of room.

This is NOT a threat of actions (to my family) but a realization the I have attempted to help those that needed it when they did not need my help.
I allowed abuse in efforts to feel worthy.


So fuck them all.


I have been by them all that asked for help...favors...needs...
I give way to much. So much that I cannot do for myself.

A little magic and perserverance (magic = meaning my mental faith in myself) should do the trick.

To all that read this:
No Christmas or gifts. Count it wonderful if I can afford to send you a card with well wishes for you and yours.


Later