I'm gonna find ya...I'm gonna get cha, gonna get cha-get cha-get cha.... To borrow a quip from Blondie's Song from ...oh I think....1977?
LOL at the moment.
Final week before the wedding.
My daughter shows up (late again ;) to walk through the set up at the park for her marriage. Bob and Sharon, who happen to be the worlds most wonderful roommates (Marty is in Korea for now so he has taken a back seat), are doing the set up. Bob and Sharon also spent all day Saturday cleaning the house so that it would be decent for the following weekend. I am talking they cleaned carpets, furniture, dusted, swept the tile, washed, cleaned the kitchen....EVERYTHING! I was upstairs sewing on the sleeves for Amanda's dress. Bob was so kind in bringing me coffee while Sharon was running up and down the stairs at each of my cries for "what do you think about this?"
Then I have to go to work at 4 to midnight each day this weekend. It is hurricane city for our offices in Orlando. Means that Tech support in Dallas takes over the roles that these people do for our customers. This means I do not have a weekend to finish up what I NEED to do for the wedding.
Nothing like what we are accustomed to doing. So far everyone is safe and the learning curve is progressing to an even level line.
WHEW
Next week is going to be entertaining to say the LEAST!
I did get to see that Amanda has all her plans written down and diagrams ready. Jason, the proud brother of the bride, is going to be in the wedding ceremony as a groomsmen! Relatives will arrive(bless them all for staying in hotels) soon. The night before the wedding day will entail a rehearsal dinner and then the bridesmaids to my home for manicures, pedicures, and henna painting.
Whew again.
Amanda is staying the night with me while Jordan stays at his parents home. Last time our children will be separated into individual families. This was something Amanda and Jordan decided to do.
I have a 'semi-sorta-clearly-undefined avenue of what to expect to happen' for the wedding day.
ROTFLMAO
This is gonna be fun!
I am really proud at how the kids have pulled this together.
Very little money input from the family. It is amazing to see what they go through in their life. All to demonstrate that there is a commitment that is so deep within them that there is a wish to share this event with all they love.
So, in keeping with the title....
Jordan...I think (by Jove) you got her!
Dang I just admire these children/young adults/married couple to be/life partners!
Next question:
When do Sally and I get to be Grandmothers?
Care to place a bet?
Sunday, September 26, 2004
Tuesday, September 21, 2004
A preview of Artistic Decadence to follow
Deca "Chocolate-Rasperry" Dance
This is one of the fabulous creations of Francisco and Regina Teng.
Can't WAIT to see what they come up with for Amanda's wedding!
Never can tell when "the sky is falling"
Well....
It may appear that I echo my daughter in her postings.
Remember, she doesn't know my password to this blog :P
The event of a wedding is weird at best.
I am so pleased for my kids in ALL their adventures and in seeing how they manage to put some of the weirdest events into a workable situation.
My daughter (for example) is managing to pay for her own wedding.
I help where I can but it is more in trying to be there for her to unload on when in need, a massage when she will be still, and smiles when she cries with confusion.
The caterer are friends of mine. Wonderful couple willing to assist in a miraculous way of provisions. The Morgans...I love you both.
The Pastry Chefs of Jeng Chi Restaurant
are making the cakes. I have included a sample picture of one of their succulent creations for your hungry eyes to feast upon! The title I gave this cake is Deca "Chocolate-Raspberry" Dance. OMG it was fantastic! Light, tender, with a fantastic Rasperry Mousse layer, a Cappuccino Mousse layer, a Chocolate Mousse Layer, and 3 other layers of Chocolate Cake! All topped with a secret Chinese recipe for chocolate icing that is to DIE for!
To the Tengs...I love you and am looking forward to your creation for Amanda's wedding.
My roomies, Bob and Sharon, are taking on the task of wedding site preparation.
God knows how grateful we are and I love you both.
The NEW Parents to my daughter, Sally and Jerry Rainey, are wonderful!
They have made my daughter as theirs...good thing cause I claim their son, Jordan, just as much. We are lucky parents.
So the title of this is never (maybe nerver or nervous would be better?) can tell when 'the sky is falling' will relate to this little segment.
Amanda is in her final 2 week prep for her wedding. We have done all the shopping possible....almost ;)
Amanda came over for her final fitting of 'the dress'. I really only needed to see if the hem was correct on the dress. Thank goodness she is vocal (or is it eye contact and body posture?) enough to let me know the sleeves 'aren't exactly "IT" in her vision'. Okay... a minor adjustment...no prob...just not ready when she expected it to be.
She isn't feeling up to par at the moment due to a womans cylce of insecurity.
She looks in the mirror and sees herself as fat..the dress feels tight..and she is ready to cry. Her eyes are starting to water and she has a most remembered 'disappointment' pout on her lips that I haven't seen since she was 5.
What can I do? The only thing is to tell her how I see things...she is beautiful. Period. No joke. A "baby girl, it is gonna be fine" type of speech falls from my lips.
Yeah, I called and "Emergency Bridal Broadcast" moment out to my roommates. They did the appropriate statements and "oh's and ah's".
The sky is sitting on my daughters heart.
All of the sudden I realize this child wants so much to be perfect, stupendous, and stupefyingly beautiful and she can't see it at this moment. She wants Jordan to see her as she feels in her heart....all love for one man.
Does this man know how absolutely lucky he is to have this woman willing to intergrate her life with him for as long as she breathes?
This is not a marriage that you see happen and know it isn't gonna last.
These kids are soul mates. Kids...need to change that reference. This man and woman are soul mates.
My darling Baby Girl....
You are the precious little one girl child that your Daddy and I were blessed with in this life.
You are perfect
You are beautiful
You are simply amazing to watch.
Jordan is blessed by your love and you are blessed by his.
THAT is stupendous.
THAT is stupefyingly beautiful.
THAT is not a 'sky is falling' type of thing...
It is the Heavens opening up for you both.
Rest easy tonight, my darling girl.
Your Brother will be near you at the alter when you and Jordan join hands.
Your Daddy will carry you on your walk in the grass to your Husband.
I will be there waiting on the sidelines remembering all the days you have been growing up 'way to fast' and hiding under the sheets playing peek-a-boo with me.
Then we will all dance at the celebration...and all the joys you will feel as the blessings come around you and join your marriage with laughter and grace.
Kisses my Little Elven Child
Momma
It may appear that I echo my daughter in her postings.
Remember, she doesn't know my password to this blog :P
The event of a wedding is weird at best.
I am so pleased for my kids in ALL their adventures and in seeing how they manage to put some of the weirdest events into a workable situation.
My daughter (for example) is managing to pay for her own wedding.
I help where I can but it is more in trying to be there for her to unload on when in need, a massage when she will be still, and smiles when she cries with confusion.
The caterer are friends of mine. Wonderful couple willing to assist in a miraculous way of provisions. The Morgans...I love you both.
The Pastry Chefs of Jeng Chi Restaurant
are making the cakes. I have included a sample picture of one of their succulent creations for your hungry eyes to feast upon! The title I gave this cake is Deca "Chocolate-Raspberry" Dance. OMG it was fantastic! Light, tender, with a fantastic Rasperry Mousse layer, a Cappuccino Mousse layer, a Chocolate Mousse Layer, and 3 other layers of Chocolate Cake! All topped with a secret Chinese recipe for chocolate icing that is to DIE for!
To the Tengs...I love you and am looking forward to your creation for Amanda's wedding.
My roomies, Bob and Sharon, are taking on the task of wedding site preparation.
God knows how grateful we are and I love you both.
The NEW Parents to my daughter, Sally and Jerry Rainey, are wonderful!
They have made my daughter as theirs...good thing cause I claim their son, Jordan, just as much. We are lucky parents.
So the title of this is never (maybe nerver or nervous would be better?) can tell when 'the sky is falling' will relate to this little segment.
Amanda is in her final 2 week prep for her wedding. We have done all the shopping possible....almost ;)
Amanda came over for her final fitting of 'the dress'. I really only needed to see if the hem was correct on the dress. Thank goodness she is vocal (or is it eye contact and body posture?) enough to let me know the sleeves 'aren't exactly "IT" in her vision'. Okay... a minor adjustment...no prob...just not ready when she expected it to be.
She isn't feeling up to par at the moment due to a womans cylce of insecurity.
She looks in the mirror and sees herself as fat..the dress feels tight..and she is ready to cry. Her eyes are starting to water and she has a most remembered 'disappointment' pout on her lips that I haven't seen since she was 5.
What can I do? The only thing is to tell her how I see things...she is beautiful. Period. No joke. A "baby girl, it is gonna be fine" type of speech falls from my lips.
Yeah, I called and "Emergency Bridal Broadcast" moment out to my roommates. They did the appropriate statements and "oh's and ah's".
The sky is sitting on my daughters heart.
All of the sudden I realize this child wants so much to be perfect, stupendous, and stupefyingly beautiful and she can't see it at this moment. She wants Jordan to see her as she feels in her heart....all love for one man.
Does this man know how absolutely lucky he is to have this woman willing to intergrate her life with him for as long as she breathes?
This is not a marriage that you see happen and know it isn't gonna last.
These kids are soul mates. Kids...need to change that reference. This man and woman are soul mates.
My darling Baby Girl....
You are the precious little one girl child that your Daddy and I were blessed with in this life.
You are perfect
You are beautiful
You are simply amazing to watch.
Jordan is blessed by your love and you are blessed by his.
THAT is stupendous.
THAT is stupefyingly beautiful.
THAT is not a 'sky is falling' type of thing...
It is the Heavens opening up for you both.
Rest easy tonight, my darling girl.
Your Brother will be near you at the alter when you and Jordan join hands.
Your Daddy will carry you on your walk in the grass to your Husband.
I will be there waiting on the sidelines remembering all the days you have been growing up 'way to fast' and hiding under the sheets playing peek-a-boo with me.
Then we will all dance at the celebration...and all the joys you will feel as the blessings come around you and join your marriage with laughter and grace.
Kisses my Little Elven Child
Momma
Monday, September 20, 2004
My Son-shine
It is wonderful to hear from my baby boy! I actually got to converse with him for a few minutes on the Instant Messanger. I never realized how much I would miss him once he moved to McKinney. It isn't far...but he works alot.
It was nice when his apartment was down the street from me.
I have learned the true value of a tall young man walking up to me and hugging me like I uysed to hug him as a baby.
Hard to believe this 6'2" Giant came out of me!
We get to talking of the games and the anime.
He is a geek...yes I have an offspring that is a real geek and one that is a real naturalist.
God....both sides of the Aquarius personalities.
They were born a year and a day apart...and have acted like twins most of their lives.
Then Jason started getting taller....WAY taller!
He was all of a sudden sprouting boats for feet, too.
We went to fit him for his Tux about a week ago. (The Tux is for his Sisters Wedding - GOSH he is handsome! )
A Size 38 Long and a size 14 shoe. He normally wears a 15 1/2 Tennis shoe.
Thank GOODNESS he buys his own now!
I have been really proud of him. He has grown up with some challenges and met them head on. There have been mistakes but he has learned and has been responsible.
I couldn't be prouder of the way BOTH my kids make their decisions.
Sometimes it's hard to not say 'but' to them...trying to list my ideas.
I have learned that if they ask for my opinion the it is more valuable to them.
I love you Jason... you are the BEST son ...I am SO proud of you!
Kisses,
Momma
It was nice when his apartment was down the street from me.
I have learned the true value of a tall young man walking up to me and hugging me like I uysed to hug him as a baby.
Hard to believe this 6'2" Giant came out of me!
We get to talking of the games and the anime.
He is a geek...yes I have an offspring that is a real geek and one that is a real naturalist.
God....both sides of the Aquarius personalities.
They were born a year and a day apart...and have acted like twins most of their lives.
Then Jason started getting taller....WAY taller!
He was all of a sudden sprouting boats for feet, too.
We went to fit him for his Tux about a week ago. (The Tux is for his Sisters Wedding - GOSH he is handsome! )
A Size 38 Long and a size 14 shoe. He normally wears a 15 1/2 Tennis shoe.
Thank GOODNESS he buys his own now!
I have been really proud of him. He has grown up with some challenges and met them head on. There have been mistakes but he has learned and has been responsible.
I couldn't be prouder of the way BOTH my kids make their decisions.
Sometimes it's hard to not say 'but' to them...trying to list my ideas.
I have learned that if they ask for my opinion the it is more valuable to them.
I love you Jason... you are the BEST son ...I am SO proud of you!
Kisses,
Momma
Sunday, September 19, 2004
Can't help but think
There are times like these that I am so grateful for my life.
I don't have a lot to complain about at all!
I finished up a stringing a necklace yesterday.
Weird luck was that the silk thread broke halfway through the piece. Lucky for me I am creative!
Saved the necklace and it came out very awesome because it is unique and the soon to be owner should enjoy such a treasure!
I will not ever copy the design again.
I also fixed my sewing machine so I can finish up my daughter's wedding dress (fine tunings you see) and finish her custom sleeves.
God I miss sewing.
I have 3 outfits I want to sew for me once the wedding is OVER.
It is so fun planning all this with my daughter.
Now we are hoping for beautiful skies, a cool breeze and the leaves to turn their autums shades to enhance her day.
I have no clue as to how many will attend.
Unfortunately my bestest friend Marty is still in Korea. My girlfriend Antje and her boyfriend Mike are going to Italy, Jeff Carmichael moved to Oregon, Lisa lives in Colorado, and most of my family live in other states.
*sigh*
I really do miss my old friends and my family.
I spent 2 hours on the phone with my First Cousin Janita...she is STILL awesome. She is beautiful, talented, and I love her sense of humor with her straightforward manner of talking. I really want to go and visit her soon. She lives in Tucson, AZ.
Sometimes I wonder why it is that a human being gets so wrapped up in the day and then at night thinks of all 'that could have been done' but wasn't.
I am thankful that I can do and have fun doing....not a care as to how far I got...but I have done my best to do what I could.
Sounds like an excuse?
It isn't.
It is my thankfulness that I can do so many things.
Laughter is the best.
I told a friend last night (after I was complimented on my giggles) that "Laughter is bubbles for the soul". I meant it.
If you feel sad or lonely...find something that makes you laugh, it is uplifting and people would rather talk to you if you smile.
Now if you don't want to be bothered..then frown. No one likes being around a grump.
LOL because I would rather have fun in my life!
Circe
I don't have a lot to complain about at all!
I finished up a stringing a necklace yesterday.
Weird luck was that the silk thread broke halfway through the piece. Lucky for me I am creative!
Saved the necklace and it came out very awesome because it is unique and the soon to be owner should enjoy such a treasure!
I will not ever copy the design again.
I also fixed my sewing machine so I can finish up my daughter's wedding dress (fine tunings you see) and finish her custom sleeves.
God I miss sewing.
I have 3 outfits I want to sew for me once the wedding is OVER.
It is so fun planning all this with my daughter.
Now we are hoping for beautiful skies, a cool breeze and the leaves to turn their autums shades to enhance her day.
I have no clue as to how many will attend.
Unfortunately my bestest friend Marty is still in Korea. My girlfriend Antje and her boyfriend Mike are going to Italy, Jeff Carmichael moved to Oregon, Lisa lives in Colorado, and most of my family live in other states.
*sigh*
I really do miss my old friends and my family.
I spent 2 hours on the phone with my First Cousin Janita...she is STILL awesome. She is beautiful, talented, and I love her sense of humor with her straightforward manner of talking. I really want to go and visit her soon. She lives in Tucson, AZ.
Sometimes I wonder why it is that a human being gets so wrapped up in the day and then at night thinks of all 'that could have been done' but wasn't.
I am thankful that I can do and have fun doing....not a care as to how far I got...but I have done my best to do what I could.
Sounds like an excuse?
It isn't.
It is my thankfulness that I can do so many things.
Laughter is the best.
I told a friend last night (after I was complimented on my giggles) that "Laughter is bubbles for the soul". I meant it.
If you feel sad or lonely...find something that makes you laugh, it is uplifting and people would rather talk to you if you smile.
Now if you don't want to be bothered..then frown. No one likes being around a grump.
LOL because I would rather have fun in my life!
Circe
Monday, September 13, 2004
A rememberance day
It is sometimes in our wisdom that when we listen we can see where we have been...and where we are now at.
I had a wonderful opportunity today. I was trusted to listen to a friend and share some of the things that I grew up through.
Mind you that some of the growing was done ONLY within this past year.
I am pleased at seeing myself and how I have learned patience, respect, and value for anothers chosen life path.
To be trusted to listen to anothers fears and frustrations can be an eye opener. Some things I forgot about and how I learned to understand. The lessons are there, evenso.
The Day was a lazy day for when I 'shoulda , woulda, coulda' done productive acts of responsibilities. I felt tremendous that I took a nap...cooked dinner, visited with my friends and roomies...and was there when needed to be talked to.
Value. This day was of total value and I feel good about being me.
Really good.
I had a wonderful opportunity today. I was trusted to listen to a friend and share some of the things that I grew up through.
Mind you that some of the growing was done ONLY within this past year.
I am pleased at seeing myself and how I have learned patience, respect, and value for anothers chosen life path.
To be trusted to listen to anothers fears and frustrations can be an eye opener. Some things I forgot about and how I learned to understand. The lessons are there, evenso.
The Day was a lazy day for when I 'shoulda , woulda, coulda' done productive acts of responsibilities. I felt tremendous that I took a nap...cooked dinner, visited with my friends and roomies...and was there when needed to be talked to.
Value. This day was of total value and I feel good about being me.
Really good.
Friday, September 10, 2004
All in a days shopping
Goodness...it was FUN!
I came home after work to grab my daughter from the evil clutches of MY washing machine and MY dryer.
There were "hems and haws" about what time to leave until I started to shop on the internet for things I was looking for. Imagine the 'hurry up and shop' attitude now kicking into high gear. :)
My daughter Amanda and her Fiancé, Jordan, have done REALLY well on paying for their own wedding. So far the costs have been right around $4300.00
She is a college student that works full time and Jordan works full time and is learning a LOT on the guitar. (Gosh he sounds good and plays VERY well...thanks to his adeptness at learning while also talking and playing with my Ex-Husband, Stephen)
I miss hearing the sound of guitars trilling and voices singing in my home.
Amanda and I are off to find items...the LAST FEW ITEMS... for the wedding and those items are table coverings and such.
My girlfriends have been pulled into service on this deal.
Beth and Brian Morgan are doing the catering...WONDERFUL help in that area. Beth does a lot of catering for other friends of mine that are about to open a VERY cool Bar called "Absinthe". (when their link is up I'll post it!) My roomies, Bob and Sharon, are going to take charge of decorations in the park for the wedding.
Regina and Francisco Teng are creating CUSTOM wedding cakes. The Teng's own a Pastry Business that is FANTASTIC! (I gotta get their link too!)
The new Parents-in-Laws, Sally and Jerry, are helping the kiddos out with the last of the costs details. I am doing what I can, too. Amanda was shy about asking for help on the last few things...but with family, ALL things are possible.
Listen to me darlings...it NEVER hurts to let family know what is going on in your life. No matter if you have a hard time opening up...it IS worth the support you will get emotionally. Besides...the hugs and kisses can't be beat!
Amanda and I found these woodsy (important definition here) wood planters that are to be the 'food buckets' and a simple but servicably beautiful table runner for the buffet table. I have a neat 'fall harvest type' table cloth for their wedding table and a slightly more simple table cloth for the cakes....the rest of the tables get servicable white table cloths that Amanda can decorate IF she has enough energy to do so.
We are down to the last 3 weeks folks!
Amanda was so cute...she has done a lot of purchases for her wedding by herself.. I thought it was because she WANTED it that way.
I had so much fun watching her shop and skip around. Just like Christmas Gift purchasing that she so enjoys...except she is the receiver of the wonderful gift of celebration with people that have come to know and love her and Jordan.
Some of those people were told enough about the kids that they FEEL like they know them well.
I admit I brag about ALL my kids... can ya blame me?
I didn't think so.
We window shopped at 2 stores... and purchased at the third. Naturally we got the best deals because Amanda is rather good at bargin hunting.
It is late..and I need sleep.
I just had to write about my little 'Elven Child' and my adventure with her.
Dang she's cute.
OH YEAH!
On this Saturday...My son is getting fitted for his Tuxedo...I promise to post a picture of him...Gosh he is a handsome SINGLE young man...no prejudism used in this writing either!
:D
I came home after work to grab my daughter from the evil clutches of MY washing machine and MY dryer.
There were "hems and haws" about what time to leave until I started to shop on the internet for things I was looking for. Imagine the 'hurry up and shop' attitude now kicking into high gear. :)
My daughter Amanda and her Fiancé, Jordan, have done REALLY well on paying for their own wedding. So far the costs have been right around $4300.00
She is a college student that works full time and Jordan works full time and is learning a LOT on the guitar. (Gosh he sounds good and plays VERY well...thanks to his adeptness at learning while also talking and playing with my Ex-Husband, Stephen)
I miss hearing the sound of guitars trilling and voices singing in my home.
Amanda and I are off to find items...the LAST FEW ITEMS... for the wedding and those items are table coverings and such.
My girlfriends have been pulled into service on this deal.
Beth and Brian Morgan are doing the catering...WONDERFUL help in that area. Beth does a lot of catering for other friends of mine that are about to open a VERY cool Bar called "Absinthe". (when their link is up I'll post it!) My roomies, Bob and Sharon, are going to take charge of decorations in the park for the wedding.
Regina and Francisco Teng are creating CUSTOM wedding cakes. The Teng's own a Pastry Business that is FANTASTIC! (I gotta get their link too!)
The new Parents-in-Laws, Sally and Jerry, are helping the kiddos out with the last of the costs details. I am doing what I can, too. Amanda was shy about asking for help on the last few things...but with family, ALL things are possible.
Listen to me darlings...it NEVER hurts to let family know what is going on in your life. No matter if you have a hard time opening up...it IS worth the support you will get emotionally. Besides...the hugs and kisses can't be beat!
Amanda and I found these woodsy (important definition here) wood planters that are to be the 'food buckets' and a simple but servicably beautiful table runner for the buffet table. I have a neat 'fall harvest type' table cloth for their wedding table and a slightly more simple table cloth for the cakes....the rest of the tables get servicable white table cloths that Amanda can decorate IF she has enough energy to do so.
We are down to the last 3 weeks folks!
Amanda was so cute...she has done a lot of purchases for her wedding by herself.. I thought it was because she WANTED it that way.
I had so much fun watching her shop and skip around. Just like Christmas Gift purchasing that she so enjoys...except she is the receiver of the wonderful gift of celebration with people that have come to know and love her and Jordan.
Some of those people were told enough about the kids that they FEEL like they know them well.
I admit I brag about ALL my kids... can ya blame me?
I didn't think so.
We window shopped at 2 stores... and purchased at the third. Naturally we got the best deals because Amanda is rather good at bargin hunting.
It is late..and I need sleep.
I just had to write about my little 'Elven Child' and my adventure with her.
Dang she's cute.
OH YEAH!
On this Saturday...My son is getting fitted for his Tuxedo...I promise to post a picture of him...Gosh he is a handsome SINGLE young man...no prejudism used in this writing either!
:D
Monday, September 06, 2004
dreams are meant to be
Even though I have many more dreams than I can remember...I know they are meant for me to see and to learn from.
I have been working on the night shift at work with Hurricane Frances having caused issue in Florida. Our night time support was taking shelter (wonder which shelter was safer myself) while my coworkers and I have been rotating in and out of the office. Wonderful group of people I work with....truly wonderful.
My mental schedule is a bit twisted at the moment, too. Not sure if the sleep I get is good sleep or tormented.
Right now it is thundering and storming BIG time outside (5:35 AM on 9/6/04...LABOR DAY!)
My hopes and dreams can be a reality as long as I remember that there are others involved in the choices, too.
I read my daughter's blog today... Hmmm... I wonder what I can do to help and knowing that I have to let her ask for help and knowing that she will work a way that is appropriate for her to take care of it.
She learns faster than I do.
Other view is curses! I WISH she hadn't learned SOME of those habits from me or from the situations in my life.
But then again, she learns fast.
Duality again...and I mean duality due to being able to see multiple sides to a situation or event.
I always feel the need to balance things out. To place humor into my life so it doesn't hurt so bad.
To laugh is the best for my healing as long as it isn't a forced laugh..a fake laugh...or one to appease another.
I laugh out of joy and happiness and fulfillment.
I am so pleased that I also have friends that are there to ask me if I'm okay just by hearing my laugh being a tad 'off'.
I know I am in a good space. My life is being handled with me being conscientiously aware.
I have had dreams of my children, dreams of my friends, and dreams for myself.
Some are wishes...but some are seeing a different side of it all and recognizing that I too can be there to help when an ear is needed...a shoulder is leaned on...and perhaps one day have the funds to help others as I have been helped.
All in good time
and
All in proper perspective of reality.
Kisses to you all for being there when I needed you most.
:)
I have been working on the night shift at work with Hurricane Frances having caused issue in Florida. Our night time support was taking shelter (wonder which shelter was safer myself) while my coworkers and I have been rotating in and out of the office. Wonderful group of people I work with....truly wonderful.
My mental schedule is a bit twisted at the moment, too. Not sure if the sleep I get is good sleep or tormented.
Right now it is thundering and storming BIG time outside (5:35 AM on 9/6/04...LABOR DAY!)
My hopes and dreams can be a reality as long as I remember that there are others involved in the choices, too.
I read my daughter's blog today... Hmmm... I wonder what I can do to help and knowing that I have to let her ask for help and knowing that she will work a way that is appropriate for her to take care of it.
She learns faster than I do.
Other view is curses! I WISH she hadn't learned SOME of those habits from me or from the situations in my life.
But then again, she learns fast.
Duality again...and I mean duality due to being able to see multiple sides to a situation or event.
I always feel the need to balance things out. To place humor into my life so it doesn't hurt so bad.
To laugh is the best for my healing as long as it isn't a forced laugh..a fake laugh...or one to appease another.
I laugh out of joy and happiness and fulfillment.
I am so pleased that I also have friends that are there to ask me if I'm okay just by hearing my laugh being a tad 'off'.
I know I am in a good space. My life is being handled with me being conscientiously aware.
I have had dreams of my children, dreams of my friends, and dreams for myself.
Some are wishes...but some are seeing a different side of it all and recognizing that I too can be there to help when an ear is needed...a shoulder is leaned on...and perhaps one day have the funds to help others as I have been helped.
All in good time
and
All in proper perspective of reality.
Kisses to you all for being there when I needed you most.
:)
Saturday, September 04, 2004
OMG...tecnology incites my daughter!
Oh my!
My daughter who was SO against computers 2 years ago cause she couldn't make sense of them and has now discovered their value!
SHE WROTE A BLOG !!!!
Check it out:
http://elementalnotes.blogspot.com/
There are times that I realize that not only am I adapting to the world...my children are also.
She is so eloquent in her style...diverse and outspoken.
Life begins in watching. The first movements of my tummy as she stretched inside...rolling around like she could make me move with her...and she often did.
"Opps! Excuse me!" all said before I realized it was a grocery shelf I had bumped into while trying to navigate a corner at the store. I wanted to go right and the baby girl inside saw cookies to the left...chocolate cookies.
How weird that she loves chocolate so much even now.
My son was kinder to me. All he ever wanted while hiding inside my personage was pizza. EVERY day I HAD to have pizza. He was better at not rolling around all the time and redirecting my choosen paths. He nailed me in the early mornings in stretching. "GOD STEPHEN!!! MOVE THE BABY!!!!!" I was crying this several times as my boy child would place his feet on my hips and his hands on my ribs and s t r e t c h out his long little strong body. Occasionally this occured in the evenings.
Stephen was a wonderful father to them. He constantly talked to my tummy and sang to it so they babies would know him by voice. I can still see the pride in his eyes when he held our children at birth and as a young children. Some of the best photo's I have is of him and our son taking naps on the couch. Curled up like little bugs into each other and breathing at the same time.
My daughter loved playing peek-a-boo under the sheets as I came in to check on her.
Now I am looking at my daughter getting married. I await with glee at becoming a grandmother in her daughters own perfect timing. I can wait for it to be the right time...but I hunger for it too. My son I would wish to find the woman of his dreams and that she be a reality in love. His children will be as delightful as he was I am sure. I can still hear him squeeking out "Momma! I can roll over!" as bloop goes a little blue and white clad boys briefed butt into the air for his first somersault. My daughter always mothering him....as if I didn't do that enough.
Even as they are the ages they are today...they still grow and give me SUCH pleasure in conversations, inspirations, and dreams of their futures.
The gifts they have been have enriched me and helped me to be a much better person. I do wish to note that they were the best valentine gifts I could ever have received from Stephen. We were so blessed by the lives that came into ours.
Thank you Stephen for the gifts.
Now, my children.... you will understand this one day....on your own.
Kisses and butt pattings...
Momma
My daughter who was SO against computers 2 years ago cause she couldn't make sense of them and has now discovered their value!
SHE WROTE A BLOG !!!!
Check it out:
http://elementalnotes.blogspot.com/
There are times that I realize that not only am I adapting to the world...my children are also.
She is so eloquent in her style...diverse and outspoken.
Life begins in watching. The first movements of my tummy as she stretched inside...rolling around like she could make me move with her...and she often did.
"Opps! Excuse me!" all said before I realized it was a grocery shelf I had bumped into while trying to navigate a corner at the store. I wanted to go right and the baby girl inside saw cookies to the left...chocolate cookies.
How weird that she loves chocolate so much even now.
My son was kinder to me. All he ever wanted while hiding inside my personage was pizza. EVERY day I HAD to have pizza. He was better at not rolling around all the time and redirecting my choosen paths. He nailed me in the early mornings in stretching. "GOD STEPHEN!!! MOVE THE BABY!!!!!" I was crying this several times as my boy child would place his feet on my hips and his hands on my ribs and s t r e t c h out his long little strong body. Occasionally this occured in the evenings.
Stephen was a wonderful father to them. He constantly talked to my tummy and sang to it so they babies would know him by voice. I can still see the pride in his eyes when he held our children at birth and as a young children. Some of the best photo's I have is of him and our son taking naps on the couch. Curled up like little bugs into each other and breathing at the same time.
My daughter loved playing peek-a-boo under the sheets as I came in to check on her.
Now I am looking at my daughter getting married. I await with glee at becoming a grandmother in her daughters own perfect timing. I can wait for it to be the right time...but I hunger for it too. My son I would wish to find the woman of his dreams and that she be a reality in love. His children will be as delightful as he was I am sure. I can still hear him squeeking out "Momma! I can roll over!" as bloop goes a little blue and white clad boys briefed butt into the air for his first somersault. My daughter always mothering him....as if I didn't do that enough.
Even as they are the ages they are today...they still grow and give me SUCH pleasure in conversations, inspirations, and dreams of their futures.
The gifts they have been have enriched me and helped me to be a much better person. I do wish to note that they were the best valentine gifts I could ever have received from Stephen. We were so blessed by the lives that came into ours.
Thank you Stephen for the gifts.
Now, my children.... you will understand this one day....on your own.
Kisses and butt pattings...
Momma
Friday, September 03, 2004
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Adventures in Relaxation ...and other deviations...
*sigh* I love this weather. Got home and enjoyed working with a client with all my windows open! The cats are pleased to see me home....this means food! Such affectionate creatures they are when hungry. Isn't that the way with us all? After my client left I went to meet up with my friends at the Velvet Hookah in Addison. I haven't made it to the one in Deep Ellum yet. The music is what the draw was this time. Listen to a few DJ's spin and then listening to Janelle and Stan and talking while laying around on comfy pillows. We tried a new Hookah Flavor caleed "Caramel". THIS was awesome! I LOVE caramel anyway...so what better treat can I have? It is a sweet aroma and a slightly sweet taste in a mild tabacco. If you have never gone to the Velvet Hookah it is a treat to try it out. On the weekends they have a belley dancer also. She is really very good. I used to perform myself for several years. Now I always end up dancing that style because it is in my nature. I wanted to thank Janelle for inviting me to meet up and have such a wonderful night with friends. The DJ Jai was very good. I am not sure about the other DJ's name (first set) but I loved his ambient style. The light show was done by Rodney and it was very nice to watch while relaxing. I love to eat the Velvet Garden (sampler platter) and share with my friends. It isn't a pricey place at all. I will note that they have 1/2 Martini's on Wednesdays. I don't drink but my friends seem to enjoy the flavors a lot there. After I left I was driving home and thinking how peaceful I have been feeling. My daughter is getting married in October. The wedding is 4 weeks off and I am SO proud of all of the accomplishments Amanda has done in it. My son is progressing in his job with Gamestop. They have him traveling into Durant, OK to assist in a new store. His store is in Sherman, TX. Jason Recently moved into McKinney, TX. I am really proud of both my children. My neice, Chandra, is living in Frisco. I miss seeing her. She is to be Amanda's Maid of Honor. I adore her and am proud of her also. She is very independant and stong willed. The house was quiet cause Bob and Sharon had gone to bed already. Geez it is only 11:30 PM...huh...11:30 and I should be in bed. I laid awake for a bit and finally went to sleep around 1 am. I woke up thinking about how NOT to go to work but to just sleep.... Got up anyway and had to ask the roommates what day it was. Thursday....darn! It isn't the weekend yet? Made my way to the coffee pot and Bob serves up breakfast. Bob ALWAYS makes breakfast for us. God I am so pleased he and his girlfriend Sharon are my roomies. My other roomie is teaching in Korea right now. Marty is my bestest friend. So I managed to eat and get most of it into my mouth...not on my clothes. Got into work and started printing these HUGE files...the engineers are bummed cause I am using up the machine :) You know engineers...everything has to be available for THEIR use at any moment. Hmmm.... that reminds me of some other people, too. They are NOT engineers . Oh well... LOL My boss comes in at 9:30 AM and tells me to head home. I have to cover the night shift. The other office is affected by the hurricane Frances arrival. Guess I should have been more specific in my wish.... So now it is late and I need to work some. I'll check in with you all later on. Sleep well and peacefully my friends.
Wednesday, September 01, 2004
A day of randomness and sunshine.
It is SO nice to have good weather! Cool in the night, a full moon that shines so bright that driving with my high def sunglasses on makes the world a golden color at night, and a gently swinging breeze that lightly lifts my short hair so that it dances in the shade during the day.
I will admit I was a tad bummed when I tried to donate blood today. My count was at 12 and it has to be 12.5 to be accepted.
Actually I was rather bummed about it.
I have been trying to donate blood the last 3 times....and I guess I still need to do a bit more work on ensuring a healthy oxygen content.
Dr Lisa tells me that it isn't just iron that is looked for in the blood count. I truly believe her cause in my opinion...she is a wonderful doctor. I would take my grandchildren to her. Heck! I would go to her too and I do talk with her.
I have a REAL fear of doctors. Long story but all bad experiences that caused me to have a relationship with the profession when I didn't want one.
I am learning though that fear is what makes me SEE the doctors. A wicked twist in reality.
I enjoy so much the calmness of my home. Buddy Lee is one of my roomates cat. He is a huge loveable teddybear of a cat. He thinks he is human and will tell you about it, too. Buddy Lee tends to sit on the back of my desk chair ANYTIME I sit down at the desk. It is like having this black shadow watching out for me ...unseen, lovingly purring, and occasionally insistant of a stroke here and there. He actually reminds me of Snoopy...hanging out on the dog house.all four legs are spread out evenly down the top. He has become one with the chair.
My cat's name is Kali.....after the Indian Goddess. Kali is a Smoked Manx which means she is a creamy color with a little gray markings on flanks (sorta soft stripped) and along her back and ears is a smoky gray color. She has brilliant blue eyes. She is very tiny for a Manx female. Buddy Lee talks WAY more than she does. He makes more cooing and purring talk than I have EVER heard form a male cat. We had a couple of Manx cats that were show quality when I was a child. Kali is show stock...but I am glad she is my pet.
The night is late now...so I will say good night...and peaceful enlightening dreams to all.
Kiss Noises...
I will admit I was a tad bummed when I tried to donate blood today. My count was at 12 and it has to be 12.5 to be accepted.
Actually I was rather bummed about it.
I have been trying to donate blood the last 3 times....and I guess I still need to do a bit more work on ensuring a healthy oxygen content.
Dr Lisa tells me that it isn't just iron that is looked for in the blood count. I truly believe her cause in my opinion...she is a wonderful doctor. I would take my grandchildren to her. Heck! I would go to her too and I do talk with her.
I have a REAL fear of doctors. Long story but all bad experiences that caused me to have a relationship with the profession when I didn't want one.
I am learning though that fear is what makes me SEE the doctors. A wicked twist in reality.
I enjoy so much the calmness of my home. Buddy Lee is one of my roomates cat. He is a huge loveable teddybear of a cat. He thinks he is human and will tell you about it, too. Buddy Lee tends to sit on the back of my desk chair ANYTIME I sit down at the desk. It is like having this black shadow watching out for me ...unseen, lovingly purring, and occasionally insistant of a stroke here and there. He actually reminds me of Snoopy...hanging out on the dog house.all four legs are spread out evenly down the top. He has become one with the chair.
My cat's name is Kali.....after the Indian Goddess. Kali is a Smoked Manx which means she is a creamy color with a little gray markings on flanks (sorta soft stripped) and along her back and ears is a smoky gray color. She has brilliant blue eyes. She is very tiny for a Manx female. Buddy Lee talks WAY more than she does. He makes more cooing and purring talk than I have EVER heard form a male cat. We had a couple of Manx cats that were show quality when I was a child. Kali is show stock...but I am glad she is my pet.
The night is late now...so I will say good night...and peaceful enlightening dreams to all.
Kiss Noises...
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