Saturday, February 25, 2006

We're IN!

Naturally with a LOT of unpacking. Time to take a breather. =)
The house fells so good!
Slowly getting a very large kitchen into a smaller one...reminds me of some of my habits that are like my mothers ;) Nicely there is something to cook...all the time. LOTS of stuff to make now! TOO much STUFF actually ;0 LOL It rained yesterday late in the afternoon while the moving was being finished up from storage units and then on the way here...a wreck on rainy roads which made everything move slower...

Arrival and a fast lunch then the guys I hired started unloading. They were a bit surprised when I told them it was a shoe free house.

Oh yeah....you may wish to get a personal pair of house shoes for the visits to our place!
The pier and beam makes it a bit chilly here.
The bedrooms are set up for sleeping...and soon the rest of the house will be done!

I promise to take pictures after all is unpacked and more home like in appearance, Storage building deco isn't comfortable ;)

I like the comfort here. Louie, poor puppy dog of Tracy's isn't happy about the rain.
Be nice when he can check out the back yard!
LOTS of squirrels here to entertain him, too.

I just took a break to let all know we are here.

The new owners realtor, Pam, came by and I ran her through some things for the new owners.
Sherrie was paid to make the house ready for them and I am grateful for the fantastic job she did!

I am pleased to have gotten movers again. Kept all of us happy and still liking each other today;)

Talk to you all later!

Circe

Friday, February 24, 2006

Midnight

Amazingly the quiet isn't still
My mind is racing and planning a path
there are obstacles every where I turn here
Memories of what my life has gathered

There are times that midnight calls
The silence in the stars and sky
Breathing in cool moist air and in joy
Looking above to see my place in it all

I face a favored life I want
Warmth of friends and hearts desires met
Children of laughter and play we are
The times of midnight are here and coming with more


Good night my love
Times of midnight bring it all to me here



**kisses**
Circe

Thursday, February 23, 2006

Dah dah dah Dummmmmmm

Today is THURSDAY.
Last day of my work week.
Tomorrow in the AM I will no longer be a home owner and become a tenant again.

I am looking forward to it!

I like my responsibilities...at times. I just want the freedom to leave when I wish if a different opportunity should show it's face.
I am also looking forward to being in a HOUSE again!
I missed having a yard and no immediate neighbors.

Well...except for Marty and Tracy.
=) they will be housemates of a wonderful kind!
Already are actually.

I am a very lucky woman in all of my friends. They care and check up on me when I say I am freaking out a bit. Marty has nagged, consoled, and then assisted me when I had no more ability to 'pack away my life'.
It is odd at how I seem to know where everything is and now I cannot find ANYTHING. It is disconcerting and feels like I am nowhere. THAT is mentally disturbing. My home is where I retreat to for balance. That is why it feels the way it does. Right now...there is no balance, but a goal. MOVE...get rid of stuff...I mean LOTS of stuff.
Head Stuff
Old Clothing Stuff
Furniture Stuff

DON'T TOUCH MY BOOKS THOUGH!
I need all of those.

I am so grateful for Marty and Tracy. We make a funny trio.
I think the friendship that Marty and I have makes Tracy laugh. She told both of us the other night (after we badgered her in going to the storage units) that we acted like an old married couple.
We both laughed.

If old married couples are this good of friends then maybe one day I will consider giving marriage a try....maybe....but I gotta have a boyfriend who wants to be with me all the time...
Hmmm... NOPE! Don't see it happening. But it is nice to dream every once in a while.
I like having friends. Companions when I chose or for a style of living I chose.

I have been divorced since March 1995. Almost 11 years!
I haven't lived alone often...mostly with children growing and family life...but I like having roommates.

I have been blessed with a few great ones, too!
Bob and Sharon Klug
Marty (when he is in the USA) *LOL*
Tracy
Amanda and Jordan
Jason

All are a part of my heart!

My Family I am blessed by also.

Tracy was helping me work on the mosaic art tables last night. Was a quiet and nice evening and I couldn't focus to save my soul!
I did a little of the work...and Tracy almost completed a flower. This table is going to be intense.
LOTS of detail!

I am trying not to freak. Tonight I go home and finish packing up. Last of my "lost life in boxes" series. (Now THAT sounds like an interesting story line!)
I will be glad when tomorrow arrives and things are in motion....again.
I say I am patient....but I am not really. I want changes...but I want my comfort zone also.

Hey!
That makes me human!
Imagine that...

Talk to you all soon!

Saturday, February 18, 2006

CH-CH-CHA-CHANGES! Time to turn around...

Amazingly fast the days are here. My children have their birthdays foremost in my mind. Reflections of previous days and ideals beginning by smiles. Amanda is 24 and Jason is 23. The two are a year and a day of waiting to have loving and caring for each other.
True, it is shown in different ways, yet they are both exhabitionist in the way the demonstrate their hearts to each other.
I enjoyed taking Jason around with me today. It was easy and relaxed. My timing isn't always to everyone's idea of when I should arrive. Today we arrived in good times at the places we needed to be at. Jason has had a bit of a time recently and it was nice to talk them over just between us. I did get to talk to Amy. She sounds really sweet. This is my son's girlfriend. He is so very happy about her. Amazed also by her. This has good signs. He also knows his mother goes by the sound of the voice in a person. Means a lot that I got to talk with her.
Amanda had a better attitude today than she has had in a while. It was wonderful to see her shoulders relaxed and her smiling. Jordan was funny and talkative at dinner. Chandra was her great comedic self again. I love all of these children in my life. They have been the best gifts that a woman could receive.
Yeah...a little prejudiced. I like it.

The close of my condo to the new owners is on Feb 24. The movers arrive on Feb. 24 at 8 AM. My closing is at 10. Packing up stuff and thank GOD for Marty!
=)
He can be a driver and a nag, but this is what is needed.
I work WAY to much to try and get the cash together to straighten out the bills.
I do NOT like owing...but it is so close to being a freedom for me to enjoy NOT owing. I think of the new home in Farmers Branch and I wonder at how I will feel about being home more?
I like the idea
It will be wonderful to have friends and family over more. This condo has been wonderful for me but I do like having a yard to be in. There is very little convenient parking at the condo.
I am excited and ready for it to be over. Time to get ride of things I can. I will also have a garage. A REAL garage! I will have to take a picture or two of the place and post them here for you all.

I am really tired right now.
Time for bed and more memories of my babies as they were and seeing how they have grown into who they are now.

Amazing things are happening.

Time to Turn around...Ch-Ch-Cha-CHANGES!

I Love David Bowie....

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

Good times get better....

WHO HOO!

The home is under contract!
and
We have a new place to live!
We will not keep the land line...cells only my dears!
I am jazzed and thrilled!
The couple that is buying the house are really nice....according to Marty.

We will be moving into Farmers Branch. I promise to post a picture or two.
=)
I am pleased the couple loves this place. It had me when I walked into the door. It felt like home. Not bad for a 6 year stint!

The job is going well. I like it there very much. Learning new things all the time. Room to move upwards in my education, skills, and friendships ... believe it or not!
Realizing there is a multitude of things to accomplish in a little over two weeks
m<*0*)m

I am having a blast with my life.
I had a long reflection about my Uncle Searcy's passing on. Driving 7 hours one way gives you time...and music. Uncle Searcy taught me a lot about expectations I would have of myself. He instilled that in my Daddy, too.
It is good to feel.
My children are about to experience year 23 and 24.
Wonderful I think.
Sometimes I worry about them. They have good sense of doing what they need to do in order to learn from decisions and unknown opportunities.
That makes me happy ..to know they are intelligent and caring.
My other family is healing also...all differently and positively I think.

See?
I had a LOT of time to think and place values into my life.

Why is it that death does this to people. To realize mortality? To fear dreams not coming true? To Fail??
I think it is not for the fears...but for the excitement of decisions. To CHOOSE to have what is in your mind and heart is only because we truly deserve hapiness,
Not preaching my dears.
Self actualizations.
Choices...and knowing that we could never see what is coming in the future and arriving in amazing ways.
Romance, laughter, friendships, celebrations, sadness of heart, joy of reunions of all forms, and LIFE!

I am happy.