Happy Birthday, Momma

Today is my mom's birthday. I went with my baby sister yesterday to visit with her. I remember so much about my childhood and the things that happened. Her interactions with each of us girls (3) was different.
We were raised as individuals. A wonderful gift. Momma is 66 today. Still young but I sometimes find that she is old in mind and old in frustrations.
Remember me?
You taught me to laugh, play, dance, and create. There were times of cuddles, safety, and joy. Always being told to look for the positive in ANYTHING in life. It has worked for me, Momma. Can it still work for you? I think you have forgotten a few simple thoughts...
first: be happy and look at the positives
second: to laugh out loud
third: to smile more often
fourth: the first thought of the day can be the deciding factor for the rest of the day.

Momma, I love you. You taught me well so that I was able to teach my children. Your birthday is a gift....to me. I am so happy to visit with you and just be the "Circe-child" at times. So what if I use 'that voice' that Jacque doesn't like...it reminds me of being underfoot in the kitchen with you throughout my life. Baking bread and waiting for the first loaf heels drenched in butter! Making ice cream or dinner together. Stirring things, running and getting things that you needed from the cabinets for my baby sisters. Climbing on everything, getting hurt, being kissed and hugged until I felt safe again.

I love you Momma.
Always will.

Circe Rexene

Flying kites

One reason I fly kites.....

Allowing my sight to reach far above me.
That is my mental sight. Sometimes I get stuck in the 'here and now' and forget to reach to the future thoughts.
Flying means I have to work with unseen factors and trust myself to 'know' what to do.

Speaking of 'knowing' ...

I got a job that I start on Monday. At least I go to the orientation. Unfortunately I am on pain meds for the blooming (literally) Poison Ivy Infection and other nefarious things on my arms. You should see me trying to type or sleep :)

I think this is gonna be good for me. There was a job I really wanted here in Dallas...but they have not made an offer yet. So..another comapny did (by DFW airport). That is where I will be!

Once I have more details I will let you know!

There are 2 others that may come up with an offer... we shall see
what draws my attention the most
at the moment I am pleased to have work again.
I am tired of organizing my home all the time

Yesterday... I TOTALLY cleaned up the fridge!
LOL
It was a chore indeed. I also made Turkey Soup, Spicy Meat Flautas, Chicken Mole Flautas, Bean and Spicy meat burritos, and Bean with Chicken Mole burritos. It was nice to share some of it with a set of friends. They have JUST moved into a new place and Jackie is pregnant with her and Dan's FIRST child!

I am looking forward to teaching her to sew for the baby :)

Life is really peaceful right now
Marty (my housemate) and I had a blast going dancing last night.
I enjoy talking with my children also!
I miss some friends of late....but that is to be expected with the holidays and travels.

Okay...time to be off the cyberworld. Time to fly!!!

Circe

new/old vision

oh to have perfect vision!
I had eye surgery again today. The lasik was not up to my comfortability preferences so Dr Mazaheri did a little different surgery today.
so far....it kinda hurts. but I am noticing a difference already! Trying to behave and not read much.
Short note, but wanted to update you all.

to see clearly my path....what a gift indeed.

Circe

LOL...the dogs are OUT!

I received the FUNNIEST video of dogs today.
I tried to upload it...but blogger doesn't do the video's yet. :(

Other information ...I went and laid a ruunning trail for the DFWH3(known as the Hash) today. Laid it with a hare named "Beaver Breath". Some of the stories of how we get named are hysterical.
It was a wet and shiggy driven trail. We went through 6 water crossings and 2 were full out swimming.
Yes...I complain and call the Hare all kinds of names in the trail laying. I had a BLAST!!! I even got Serena and Rob to join in an the deal. They were really good sports.
Got a puncture wound in my arm though. It's okay though. WAR WOUNDS!!!

Doing good mentally today.

Laughing all the way.

When Pigs Fly....

Okay!
Yesterday was a pity me day.
Frustration and anger was allowed...I stayed away from everyone because they didn't need it!

Today is MUCH better.

=)

Hopefully I will have a job soon.

Dance like no one is watching????

Sheez! I like to know people enjoy seeing my performance and hopefully they decide to join in!
I went to my daughters 1st belly dance performance. She has been working hard with her troop for 4 months.
It was a fantastic show! Great 'fusion work' and interesting costumes!
It's not all sequins like I remember.
I even performed. :) Thank God it was a 4 minute routine!
Very heavy in drums which I adore. I miss having a drum to play. I gave the Doumbec to my sister Jacque. It used to belong to my mother. My mom and I used to belly dance together. Very cool tradition to pass on...and the sounds stay in the heart and soul!

I even was recognized by a dancer that had lessoons from my mom!
Way awesome because I remembered her too!
I hope she will start dancing again. Nothing like it to keep you young :)
Well it is late and I worked a lot today on massages. Time for bed!

Sweet dreams and may you all hear the sound of drums to quicken your dance steps in life!

Circe

There can be time for you and me.....

A discovery within myself. Patience is grand, but I have to make the time to accept myself outside of what I expect of myself.
Sound confusing?
Not really that but possibly self realizing and actualization.
So much of my time is spent on taking care of others.
I do fantastic massages. I do great at sewing and making things. I teach, I laugh, I uplift my friends when they feel down.
However....

When do I allow them time to return the same?
Hard to catch me being still.
It seems that if I allow it or follow my heart instincts then I will hurt. That I do fear...hurting in my heart.

I want to change that.
I want to share more of my thoughts.

If you see me...then ask a question and LISTEN. Try not to interject because I will stop talking. Just the way I seem to react of late.

I want to be here. I want to find. I want to openly exist.
Sometimes it is perfectly alright to just ...

be

Seat Reservation

A friend sent this poem to me. It's a Danish poem,
translated for my (our) enjoyment. It holds a nice
peaceful thought for the day. Enjoy.
Lisa

Seat Reservation

Space for feelings
Space for surprises
Space for secrets
Space for sorrow
Space for tender care
Space for help
Space for continuity
Space for dreams
Space for life

I wish to reserve a double seat

Jytte Bach
November 2005


Lisa! What a PERFECT reminder for my day! Thank you so very much.

Summer Fall

Holbrook Pictures

Crazy weather it is this year
Sounds of the Train going by
High and low the tones and temps
All moving quickly past
Reflection of my life in mind
Opening up my mind and heart
Words of music strum my ears
No tears
But laughter and thoughts
Time to wait
Winter Spring to come

She looks a lot like me

I am amazed! This is my daughter Amanda. Her new haircut and color!
Fantastically outstanding!
You can see it in her eye....
fun, intelligent, daring, and spunky.