It's my party... and I'll

dance if I want to!

Yep!
HAPpy BIRTHday to me # 47!! I am actually pretty thrilled about it.
I think I look pretty decent for a soon to be grandmother that likes to dance holes into her feet, climb rocks, and ride mountain bikes down rocky inclines. (mostly because riding up is a pain in the arse!)

I have been silent on this blog because I am searching for a different way to have a blog available.
There are many things in my life that my family 'know' of me but don't KNOW in actuality.

I have a lot of really good talents and sometimes I have NO clue as to how they got there except I seem to KNOW how to do the tasks by looking at it.

It has weirded me out for years and I would like to have an answer to this question.

How many other people "get that" and have experienced it in daily life?

I find that there are times life is so overwhelmingly happy that I have to wiggle and move to get it out of me for some kind of balance. Dancing is perfect.
It shows my views on life and emotions. There is contact, dreams, desires, and sorrows all placed into a swirling mass of color and motion. I can dance how I feel.

I want to dance for my birthday adn Marty is aware of it!
He is my bestest friend for the longest time. Then I have Brian and Mark. Men that know me as about as well as Marty does (some secrets were hard hearings my loves and I chose only Marty for those) and sweeties to me in bestest friend style. I adore my guys. I truly would risk my life for each of them. My children! OH how wonderful it is to be a mother in all senses of love. I am joyous that Amanda is getting to experience it also.

Remember this Amanda:
He is himself at all times. He and you are connected at all times. He is as he is.
Beautiful

It is a wonderful gift to see a child coming into my life.
In any fashion. They love unconditionally. They expect nothing yet learn to appreciate the receipt of touch and whispers of love. You have that wonderful earth sense about you Amanda. It is graceful to watch you. Breathe in the joys and wonders of this unusual time in your life. It all occurs individually for each of us. It is unique as the creation you carry. You are the Godess Creative in her reign of beauty and strength. It is something you seem to be able to balance well with. I love watching you change and grow in thought and actions. You are beautiful.

Jason, my son, you have always gone into your life with your own ideas of how it was supposed to be. You were never fully given the support I think in your dreams. I remember a boy of action and laughter. Running and then being so curious that there were 'things' on the ground that needed investigating. It was a delight to sneek up and tickle you. You laughed so well and belly deep! I sometimes would sit and investigate with you. You would contentedly sit and observe the smallest motions of the bugs. Look up at me, smile, then watch them again so silently. It was wonderful to watch you observe and breathe. Your eyes searching for changes.

My Niece. You remind me a lot of me. You are more outspoken like your mom in most things however. (naturally so, I must agree!) YOU have met some wonderful opportunities head on while suceeding when little was left to believe in. You have daring and it is being tempered by Grace in learning when to bow out of a situation that no longer serves it's need. I am proud of you also, My Other Child.

All three of you children were raised close together. It was a wonderful thing to dao considering I was used to having 2 sisters of my own. 3 seemed right. You were mostly together.

Now you all have seperate lives that are a delight to watch unfold.

My parents,
Thank you for being the beginning of this fantastic life. I cannot describe how wonderful I feel about being your child. the first in a joined expression. I am loving this life I have.

I am really looking forward to the dance.

Thanks Marty...
thanks to you ALL!!!!